So, I blew it. Actually, I blew it a week ago. A week ago I had some solid cooked vegetarian food after I had a very bad feeling in my gut, thinking it would make that stop. That lead to several days of gastrointestinal distress. I didn't post about it because, well I'm paranoid about the implications of what I permanently add to the global internet database.
Then, yesterday I had chicken, for a similarly obviously wrong reason, and my stomach is kind of burning, probably from all the acid. Luckily, sort of, I don't have a gal bladder to have an attack with. But, I know from the experience with the other cooked food, it is going to be days before I feel okay again.
The point of starting on March 7, was that I wanted to do this at the same time as others, to get support. But, the people I'm learning from here have all started on different dates. So, it doesn't really matter to me if I start over. I also am not interested in an endurance test. So, I'm not sure if I'll start over, or just continue for the originally planned 92 days. I might try to add some fiber for a few days, sort of moving to a modified diet, and then return to the feast/fast.
The heart of the matter is a deeper thing that I don't want to post about on the internet. Really, what I need is church. I don't think there is church for people aspiring to agnosticism. Buddhism is kind of that, I guess. Really, I need church for aspiring agnostics, in groups consisting of 3 to 5 people. Oh well.
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