Annika's Page

Last year I started eating a vegan raw food diet and experienced a lot of detox symptoms. After a few months I started to feel pretty good, but right around then my husband started "freaking out". He became abusive, spent our mutual money, and finally filed for divorce. I had been working through an unrelated trauma at the time and collapsed under the circumstances. For a week I couldn't eat anything at all, became weak and couldn't get out of bed. After that I went back on the "emotional eating" diet, lots of carbs and sugar. I tried getting back to healthy eating but stayed on a roller coaster the whole time.

Eventually I realized that I couldn't eat any of the delicious raw foods I had previously loved because the recipes reminded me too much of my ex-husband. During the time of separation and abuse we were both working at a raw food restaurant together. I am a naturopathy student right now so I know the importance of eating living foods and I realize that my "emotional eating" is only feeding the depression and anxiety I am living with.

I am living with my parents now, who eat a standard German diet (much better than SAD, but still quite a ways from vegan raw). I am having a hard time with being the only vegetarian I know. I really hope to move back to the US soon, but right now finances are preventing me from doing that. I am hoping to meet health-conscious people in Germany, maybe even through this webpage?

My family is tolerant of my eating different, but not actively supportive. They are very religious, however, so I am taking the opportunity of lent to go on a juice fast.