Introspection- Day 8 of my Juice Feast- Blogging about blogging..lol

[Kellygirl's Raw]

Well here I am. I have sat down to blog everyday for a week and I couldn't bring myself to post. I had been keeping a blog on the web you can go here to read it if you feel led. I have been 65 days 100%Raw, and I have been pretty much just drinking 2 liters of green smoothie and 2 liters of juice, with 3-4 liters of water for the past month or so...with light raw dinners on occasion. The week before I started the Juice fast I had very little solid food, but I did have one "Last RAW Meal" the day before my fast began- to celebrate my B-day. I guess because my transition from raw/solid to raw/liquid was very slow I have felt it very natural, and although I have detoxed all along the way, my progress has been gentle and healing.

Something has changed in me..or rather I should say "is" changing. I was happily blogging everyday to post my meals and how I felt, and share what little tid- bits of knowledge I had scrounged up for the day. The more I read, and the more I learned...I realized that I wanted to share this precious knowledge with as many people as would hear it. I was on a mission, I was excited...I posted links and posted information that had made the little light go on in my head...read read...post post.........Then I started realizing that I was writing as if zillions of people were benefiting from this info...when really I only had a hand full of blog followers....that sudden realization made it really hard to want to bother to post..in fact I became pretty depressed for a couple of days..in which I didn't post........................so then I thought well, for now, I will just live as an example of what transformations can really occur..and if people are meant to find something I have shared, then they will stumble upon it, like I did (on others sites) on several occasions. So I stared posting again, but not as frequently, and my passion for posting was waning. I was however experiencing amazing changes in my body, and my mental clarity was improving so much. My hunger for knowledge was unending. My spiritual awareness and my natural spiritual abilities were advancing and expanding. I was excited to be having such amazing results from this lifestyle change. I Shared my experiences as I went. I know how much watching others inspired me...I think it is important to be a little voice of peace love joy and hope. So many people feel separate and alone, sick and hopeless.
Over time more people started reading and a few of them have started incorporating more live foods into their diets, some have even gone Raw, and still others are preparing for a juice fast in their near futures.

Since I started to do my Juice feast I haven't blogged at all until today..now.

Perhaps it feels boring to me to write down what I mixed my celery juice and greens with. I find myself eating close to the same thing each day. In small different measures and combination, but does it really matter? I guess it does....if it helps even just a few............

So..I need to get my butt in gear."She says to herself"......lol

I think during the lull I have spent more time internally..thinking..discovering myself along my journey. I have been doing some heavy emotional detoxing since I started my Juice fast. It is helping me discover what my purpose is in life..what I can do to make a positive difference to the world and the people that I touch. I have been on the right path..almost- on and off through out my life...I can see how my experience all interconnects to a purpose. It is great opening up to your own personal truth. There have been times that I have pretty much been shown very specific things to do....and I have stopped and said wait..I am not ready for that...I am not ready to take that on. I don't know enough, I am not important enough to do that right now..
I need to trust and change my internal speak.
What I need to be saying is;
I am taking the steps to come into alignment with truth, beauty, knowledge,healing and trust.
For me the trust comes by abandoning myself to the rhythm of the universe..allowing things to unfold in a positive way. Knowing that if there is something I am meant to do...then things will begin to happen to allow for that. Opportunities will open, contacts will be made, information will find its way to me. I know that, that is truth.

So today is day 8 and today I am spending my day reading, listening to calming music, mediating, spending wonderful moments with my kidlings(it is spring break here). I find that I am easily irritated by external negativity. So I have gone out of my way to remove that as much as possible from my day. I am making a consious effort to keep my thoughts and my mood positive and joyful.

Have a Wonderful day!

[UtoPia]

Sweet. Thanks for sharing.
Blessings and Blissings!

[Berry Blue Toes]

Thank you for sharing this and for being so honest. I've been feeling the same way about blogging. I'm buzzing with all the new things I'm learning and wanting to share so posting posting posting but, also am feeling that a lot of emotional detoxing has been going on during this process - so a lot of self doubt about documenting is going on. Some days I think ugh why would anyone want to read what I'm going through? Then I read what you have written here about being a little voice and think - "yes that is it - that is why" - and it makes all the difference - keep blogging I'll be reading :)

[Dr. George Cromack]

Kelly

You have a nice way of expressing yourself in writing... I think it is therapeutic for you as well as helps others. Please keep blogging and sharing your Journey

Love and Light

Dr. George