THE YELLOW FLAGS ARE UP

[Alessandra]

Oooh I just had a nice lovely poo......and my colon is smiling. Today I realized just how sneaky my self-sabotage mode is. I cheated a bit....and I should not have...and as far as cheats go it could have been alot worse...but I know what is going on....and I have to nip it in the bud. It is self sabotage....what is it about feeling fantastic, doing awesome things that is so scary? That makes me...and others I realize.......put the brakes on just when things are looking good? I think I can get past this most recent time very easily.....but that doesn't mean the issue is resolved. What did I have? I had 2 frozen fruit bars....a coconut one and then I went to another store as I had more shopping to do, and there I got a mango one. About as natural as you can find, but still......not raw, not juice, not on the program. And so far I have only drank one quart of juice. But I am not starving myself, the fruit bars gave me some calories and energy and I still have 2 quarts of juice that I can drink and some young coconuts...one of which I think I will be having the water from tonight.

So....really have to have a talk with myself....a little session of meditating, thinking, pondering, and visioning what I am about, what I truly want.....and how I am going to move forward. So, feeling good....but the yellow flags are up........

[Grace]

My old goal for feeling 'normal' was to just feel half-way healthway on my half SAD diet since it wasn't so SAD as everybody else running around having a life. It's a hard reckoning gathering myself unto myself and realizing that now I KNOW what to do, so WILL I be able to do it to save my life? A bit of a glimpse of what it is like for drug addicts who know they are killing themselves. I'm not going into this as a raw foodist so the thing is before I even start I have to realize I cannot go crazy at the end of the feast. Hopefully I will not crave the same stuff at the end. Blessings to all.

[Alessandra]

I did a really helpful thing last night, I went to RawFood Tulsa, back to April of 2008 and read Penni's blog of her 92 day juice fast from Day One to the end........it was inspiring and also got some really good juice recipes out of it. We can do it we can we can we can.....and we are going to be Transformed!!! That is the awesome part that keeps me juicy!

[Mary]

And I have a tendency to think it is just me that does this stuff - the instant I do something off the program, there's a voice in my head that starts telling me I can't do it. I've basically given up for now - and am planning to restart once I return from a visit with my daughter. I've wondered if it would help if I didn't blog my efforts - cause then I get this perfection thing in my head - I write honestly what happens - and then I get so embarrassed - it is so emotionally complicated!

[patricia]

yes, alessandra, you are not alone.... im not entirely sure what that self sabotage is all about.... but im sure thats why i have not been able to go past 16 days in the past. is it just old habits that feel safe to hold onto? afraid of this new clean, vibrant, energetic life we are building with juices? or raw foods? sometimes i think thats part of my problem. and sometimes its just a feeling of seeing everyone else go about their day eating what they want and all of a sudden i dont feel normal...i feel very unsure of myself, or weird/different... and i just want to feel normal. i hate that feeling and need to learn to stand firm 100% of the time in my strong beliefs of juicing and raw food. :o) i want to be a walking example of the wonderful benefits of juicing/raw instead of conforming to what i know isnt right for my body.

we are on Day 10 alessandra!!!! yipee!!!!!!! you are awesome for recognizing yellow flags, addressing it, and getting right back on with your juice feast. your body is sooo happy with you for all the good youve done in the last 9 days.... just think how happy its going to be at the end when you are transformed to your vision!! :o) happy wednesday! have a beautiful juicy day!!!!

[Berry Blue Toes]

Oh my god you sound like me! I'm laughing thank god I'm not alone. I had that same little talk with myself just tonight. I'm just preparing to start by cleaning the gunk out of my system but, still doing the self sabotage thing - and worried about my will power. I'm off to olmmm.... best of luck!